Man where to begin.For the past few weeks I've been having a lot on my mind as you know, with trying to find a new apartment finishing up my 6th semester, and trying to maintain a healthy social life. Well, the hard part finding an apartment has finally paid off and I signed the lease yesterday and I can move in now up until May 15th, when my lease is up with my current roommate. I've been so stressed with school still because I've got a lot of projects to do and I have to write 16 short essays for my western theories of art class that's due wednesday so my professor can correct it in time for me to use it as a study tool for the final that's in 3 weeks. On top of that, I have to finish my 4th sculpture with deals with making a mother mold so it has to be 10" x 10" and 4" high and I HAVE NO CLUE what I want to do with that. Now my social life is getting much much better now that I'm having spare time in between classes and even after class and/or work to spend time with everyone. Dating is also starting up again. It's been about 3 months since my breakup with Seth, and I wasn't too sure if dating was really for me but being asked for dinner and drinks is always nice. AND it's a way to get to know someone without the pressure of sex. I get told a lot that "I could get fucked in half" and that "I'm the hottest piece of ass on facebook" but is that all I really am to you? It's a turn off to me because I'm a very sensual person and I love being close with someone but when you're that aggressive, in my eyes you're just an animal and I wonder how many other guys you're doing this to.
I have been extremely horny though. The sexual frustration has been on my mind quite frequently, and I've increased how many times I jerk off a day because I just can't take it anymore. I think about cock and ass and doing everything in the book with men in general that I blame my ex for that LOL. In a good way though, he introduced me to spitting, peeing, nipple/ball torture and even kinky stuff like handcuffs and minor hitting.
So let's talk about Bruno. I met him and we've agreed to be pen pals and it's quite interesting because he's in Brazil. He's 27 and his accent is the cutest thing ever. He struggles sometimes to find the best english word when he's talking to me and it's just so cute to see. His smile is another thing that really makes me weak in the knees. I know that he's so far away from me, but there is something fun and new about talking to someone that's so far but with the help of technology, it's so easy and fabulous to talk with someone via video chat :)
