GaGa Raptoring Through the MoNH.

Finally, some zZzZz.

This is my latest inspiration for a new tattoo that I want to get on/across my left shoulder onto my neck. maybe. I'm not quite sure yet on the placement. My mind is racing with ideas and my creative juices are flowing because today was the launch of the senior show at FIT. Each major has this amazing section on campus displaying the best of the best. No lie, the BEST of the best. Of course I went straight to the Fine Arts area and let me tell you - I WAS SHOCKED. Mainly I was in awe and envious because the talent was at a professional level. I can't wait until next spring when it will be my turn to showcase my body of work. Although next year, there will be a little twist. Since there are two blocks (two sections that the seniors will be divided into) the senior show will be a voted on. So the best will survive which means I will have to step up my game. I feel like there is a lot of rising talent and now is the time to start developing my senior thesis concept.

But now that I have time to actually write, hopefully I can remember all the tiny details that I thought would be interesting to comment on. I've already mentioned the things that I really enjoy from sounds, scents and actual tangible things but I like the more indirect situations or people that I run into in my daily life. Like Mohamad, he works at the lamb gyro cart across the street from my job. He catches the same 5am train as me and started making conversation with Ryan (friend and coworker that lives 3 blocks away from me) and I about small stuff like going to the beach on his day off, and going out drinking and smoking with his cousin looking at girls with big boobs. He asked me I ever notice girls with 'em and I just shrug and say, "I've never looked really". I don't know if he knows that I'm gay, you know some people don't assume or have prejudgements. He's a smart guy, 21 but looks like 28. Very mature, I guess he has to be just like me, you can read that about certain people. Or what about Lauren. A regular at work who is the sweetest person I've ever met, well-spoken, polite and happens to be from the same area in Texas as me. She lives in the same building as my job (so above me) and her and her husband always ask about school and my personal life. And it's not just, "Oh how's life", it's sincere and I like that. Anyway, I had no idea that is a broadway star so when I looked her up online, I found out so much footage of her singing The Sound of Music and her role as Maria. I was impressed with her outside life away from being my regular that I respect and envy her THIS much more. There is Jasmine, the pharmacist at Duane Reade that is so quiet and shy that I can't help but notice the kind of girl she is. She's nice and quiet and always says "yes please, and no thank you". I wonder what's her story. I ask myself that question a lot when it comes to people that I see on a recurring basis. I wonder how many people are true New Yorkers, or how many of them come from another state. But see, this is my ADD kicking in because clearly that's another topic for another entry.

So it's roughly 8:15pm now and I'm about to shower, get a quick bite to eat and go to bed! This makes it one week that I've moved into my new place and I've still got lots to unpack. I've been so busy with socializing and working and school that I'm drained. It would be nice to get some sleep for a change! (Maybe talk with Bruno too, but we've been playing email/skpe tag for a few days now) LOL

MMM sleeeeeep. :)

(PS, I'll post pictures soon of my new place , I won't keep you hangin'!)

Pirate Mom Shout Out

10am.

I will be back to beautiful Manhattan. Finally.


...man, I wish I weren't so busy so I could actually update a full post...

Sensual Thunder.

Man where to begin.

For the past few weeks I've been having a lot on my mind as you know, with trying to find a new apartment finishing up my 6th semester, and trying to maintain a healthy social life. Well, the hard part finding an apartment has finally paid off and I signed the lease yesterday and I can move in now up until May 15th, when my lease is up with my current roommate. I've been so stressed with school still because I've got a lot of projects to do and I have to write 16 short essays for my western theories of art class that's due wednesday so my professor can correct it in time for me to use it as a study tool for the final that's in 3 weeks. On top of that, I have to finish my 4th sculpture with deals with making a mother mold so it has to be 10" x 10" and 4" high and I HAVE NO CLUE what I want to do with that. Now my social life is getting much much better now that I'm having spare time in between classes and even after class and/or work to spend time with everyone. Dating is also starting up again. It's been about 3 months since my breakup with Seth, and I wasn't too sure if dating was really for me but being asked for dinner and drinks is always nice. AND it's a way to get to know someone without the pressure of sex. I get told a lot that "I could get fucked in half" and that "I'm the hottest piece of ass on facebook" but is that all I really am to you? It's a turn off to me because I'm a very sensual person and I love being close with someone but when you're that aggressive, in my eyes you're just an animal and I wonder how many other guys you're doing this to.

I have been extremely horny though. The sexual frustration has been on my mind quite frequently, and I've increased how many times I jerk off a day because I just can't take it anymore. I think about cock and ass and doing everything in the book with men in general that I blame my ex for that LOL. In a good way though, he introduced me to spitting, peeing, nipple/ball torture and even kinky stuff like handcuffs and minor hitting.

So let's talk about Bruno. I met him and we've agreed to be pen pals and it's quite interesting because he's in Brazil. He's 27 and his accent is the cutest thing ever. He struggles sometimes to find the best english word when he's talking to me and it's just so cute to see. His smile is another thing that really makes me weak in the knees. I know that he's so far away from me, but there is something fun and new about talking to someone that's so far but with the help of technology, it's so easy and fabulous to talk with someone via video chat :)

Smitten Kitten.

So, I found a pen pal.
Bruno from Brazil and he's all mine.
His accent makes it so much better.
2010 is finally looking up. new apartment. new people.

...will write more later

3rd Sculpture. Done.

Stomach Rubbed.

Things.

Things that I will always love:

1.) The smell of fresh, crisp air between the hours of 5-7am.

2.) The sound of free-poured coffee in coffee mugs.

3.) Finding out that they have one shirt/pant in your size left.

4.) Days where you never have to wait for a train, and there's always a seat.

5.) Sales, on top of student discounts.

6.) Taking it slow with someone that genuinely has a great heart.

7.) Bowls of cereal and movies in bed.

8.) The sensation of speed walking through Penn Station.

9.) Fashion. Men's Fashion. Men's Shoes. Men's Bags. Fashion.

10.) Catching up with people I love. Including Seth.