During my commute to school, I saw 2 men and 1 woman all picking their noses on the subway.
I'm talking index finger in the nostril as if they're sitting alone on the toilet.
When did this become okay publicly?
I'm just saying, ew.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Everybody's Doing It!
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.
(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then publish.)
DISCLAIMER: Because everyone and their dog has already filled this out, or has been "tagged" to do this at some point, I'm not going to tag anyone - just share 25 random facts. Enjoy!
25 Random things about me:
1. I'm a Dallas native, but at age 7, I moved to Southern California until I was 16 followed by a move BACK to Dallas for 2 more years until finally coming out and setting down in New York. 2 years later, I was accepted into FIT.
2. Speaking of which, everyone has been asking me what my favorite medium is, and I keep asking myself the same question. When I started, I was 100% up for drawing, but now painting and mixed mediums by far trumps drawing. :)
3. My body seems to have this instant reaction to music, whether I'm sitting or standing I seem to find the move to the groove.
4. I've always been self-conscience about my teeth because ever since I could remember I've been laughing with my hand over my mouth or smiling certain ways without showing "too much" teeth. But October of 2008 changed everything because that's when I got the braces off and now my smile and laugh reflect what's been inside of me all this time.
5. I prefer briefs, but I get turned on by the "sway and curvature" of a good boxer.
6. I've always known that I love to travel, but at this point in my life it's very possible to get anywhere I would like or interested in visiting. Thank you Seth. :)
7. Fresh cut grass and late night thunderstorms are my ultimate favorite scents besides the very gay vanilla bean or anything close to that.
8. I'm learning how to cook, and if you know me know me, me cooking is like asking me a sports or engine question. I'd like to thank my amazing chef/teacher.
9. I'm against video/computer games but I'm addicted to Wii. But only Mario Kart.
10. I hate these random facts things, who has time to list 25? 10 is more realistic.
11. I'm really bad with remembering birthdays.
12. I have an incredible sweet tooth and I really wish I would get rid of it.
13. I have this fun hobby of "people watching" on the subway. Mainly because I like to watch everyone move to the rhythm of my music and almost play out this faux musical in hopes that everyone knows the words and dances at the same time.
14. I like musicals.
15. I went for drinks with a friend's ex-boyfriend and gang for his birthday and apparently that falls in the category "dating-the-ex" and that's just bullshit. The little group of kids never speak to me again.
16. Speaking of ex, I'd really like to just be friends with mine. Exes who turn out to be friends in the end is a myth to me.
17. Moms on facebook annoy me.
18. My left armpit always itches after ______. I don't know if it has something to do with my release.
19. I've never been to a concert before. Nelly Furtado was my first concert thanks to my wonderful friend Lauren. Now Seth and I are doing research to find which city has the cheapest Britney Spears tickets so we can travel there and enjoy her live. Gay.
20. I get really sick to the sight of blood.
21. I love all the good bitch drinks. Malibu Bay Breeze is my number one.
22. "I suck dick fo money" .... wha??" I love inside jokes.
23. Because I've moved a lot from state to state and city to city, I've met a lot of people along the way. I never get tired of networking and I'm very interested in stories that people have to share. It's so cliche but it's seriously like our own individual thumbprint. I love it because it's hard to find an honest/ genuine person who's not afraid to share their "baggage"!
24. Before I turn 25, I would like to see The Everglades, Egypt & The Stonehenge and I want to go skydiving (even though I'm scared shitless) and to swim with Shamu.
25. I'm a total nerd for CSI and Forensic Files. Something about those shows and criminal justice really gets my blood pumping!
(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then publish.)
DISCLAIMER: Because everyone and their dog has already filled this out, or has been "tagged" to do this at some point, I'm not going to tag anyone - just share 25 random facts. Enjoy!
25 Random things about me:
1. I'm a Dallas native, but at age 7, I moved to Southern California until I was 16 followed by a move BACK to Dallas for 2 more years until finally coming out and setting down in New York. 2 years later, I was accepted into FIT.
2. Speaking of which, everyone has been asking me what my favorite medium is, and I keep asking myself the same question. When I started, I was 100% up for drawing, but now painting and mixed mediums by far trumps drawing. :)
3. My body seems to have this instant reaction to music, whether I'm sitting or standing I seem to find the move to the groove.
4. I've always been self-conscience about my teeth because ever since I could remember I've been laughing with my hand over my mouth or smiling certain ways without showing "too much" teeth. But October of 2008 changed everything because that's when I got the braces off and now my smile and laugh reflect what's been inside of me all this time.
5. I prefer briefs, but I get turned on by the "sway and curvature" of a good boxer.
6. I've always known that I love to travel, but at this point in my life it's very possible to get anywhere I would like or interested in visiting. Thank you Seth. :)
7. Fresh cut grass and late night thunderstorms are my ultimate favorite scents besides the very gay vanilla bean or anything close to that.
8. I'm learning how to cook, and if you know me know me, me cooking is like asking me a sports or engine question. I'd like to thank my amazing chef/teacher.
9. I'm against video/computer games but I'm addicted to Wii. But only Mario Kart.
10. I hate these random facts things, who has time to list 25? 10 is more realistic.
11. I'm really bad with remembering birthdays.
12. I have an incredible sweet tooth and I really wish I would get rid of it.
13. I have this fun hobby of "people watching" on the subway. Mainly because I like to watch everyone move to the rhythm of my music and almost play out this faux musical in hopes that everyone knows the words and dances at the same time.
14. I like musicals.
15. I went for drinks with a friend's ex-boyfriend and gang for his birthday and apparently that falls in the category "dating-the-ex" and that's just bullshit. The little group of kids never speak to me again.
16. Speaking of ex, I'd really like to just be friends with mine. Exes who turn out to be friends in the end is a myth to me.
17. Moms on facebook annoy me.
18. My left armpit always itches after ______. I don't know if it has something to do with my release.
19. I've never been to a concert before. Nelly Furtado was my first concert thanks to my wonderful friend Lauren. Now Seth and I are doing research to find which city has the cheapest Britney Spears tickets so we can travel there and enjoy her live. Gay.
20. I get really sick to the sight of blood.
21. I love all the good bitch drinks. Malibu Bay Breeze is my number one.
22. "I suck dick fo money" .... wha??" I love inside jokes.
23. Because I've moved a lot from state to state and city to city, I've met a lot of people along the way. I never get tired of networking and I'm very interested in stories that people have to share. It's so cliche but it's seriously like our own individual thumbprint. I love it because it's hard to find an honest/ genuine person who's not afraid to share their "baggage"!
24. Before I turn 25, I would like to see The Everglades, Egypt & The Stonehenge and I want to go skydiving (even though I'm scared shitless) and to swim with Shamu.
25. I'm a total nerd for CSI and Forensic Files. Something about those shows and criminal justice really gets my blood pumping!
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Things I Like.
Right now.
Random doodles in my book.
Framing new photos.
Finding a size (xs) at the bottom of the pile.
My view.
Laughing.
Coffee.
Amazing music with sick beats.
Summer days during fall.
Strolls around the block followed by late night runs.
The fresh, crisp scent that winter is approaching.
Tortilla chips dipped in chocolate ice cream.
Old school Nintendo.
Patent Leather Lace Ups.
.002 ballpoint pens.
More coffee.
Cold bedrooms. Cold bed sheets.
Apple pie for breakfast.
Oh, and going from London to Paris.
<3
Random doodles in my book.
Framing new photos.
Finding a size (xs) at the bottom of the pile.
My view.
Laughing.
Coffee.
Amazing music with sick beats.
Summer days during fall.
Strolls around the block followed by late night runs.
The fresh, crisp scent that winter is approaching.
Tortilla chips dipped in chocolate ice cream.
Old school Nintendo.
Patent Leather Lace Ups.
.002 ballpoint pens.
More coffee.
Cold bedrooms. Cold bed sheets.
Apple pie for breakfast.
Oh, and going from London to Paris.
<3
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Sneak Peek.
Project Milo.
Wood. Wire. Acrylic Medium. Newspapers. Old Clothes.
Hair Extensions. Jersey. Feathers. Sequins. Leather.
This is just his neck - it's 7ft.
Enjoy.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Monday, August 11, 2008
Bonding Moment.
So I've had this itch to write, but quite frankly I don't even know where to begin. There has been so much going on that I have to actually sit down and organize my thoughts.
We all know that last week was Gay Pride and that I'm still recovering but let me tell you - I had so much fun. Who doesn't want to be trashed by noon, followed by hot men and dance around to amazing music? I mean hello!?! I've networked and made so many new friends..started a new job (kinda on the DL) and even met a few famous people. About a week ago, Laura Linney and Eric McCorrmick both came into my store a day apart from each other, but Laura came in three times that week...to the point that she and I talked about weather, dogs and being busy. She now knows me by a first name basis and I now know her drink - Grande Chi Latte. (Eric's was a double tall skim extra foam latte in case you were interested ;) ) I've found a few cute bars down in the village that are my latest hot spots to 'wine & dine' and dance like a complete fool and to be honest, I love it. I was so excited too, when my BEST friend Lauren came into town for a Bachellorette Party. She spent the first day and 1/2 with me and came to party with me and my boys and let me just tell you..I think we have to have a pt. 2. I celebrated most of my pride week drunk, hanging out with all the boys and watching them kick out the creepy old men from bars who seem to think it's okay to touch themselves in public to the point of erection and think nothing of it. What was his excuse after Edward told him off, "Fuck you mannnn" and he peaced out. And fast. Day after day, I was bar hopping and anticipating the parade and let me tell you...I opened from 5-9am then went to brunch from 10:30-1:30 and then another party from then to 6:00 and then hit the sack. I was soo tired that I think I slept in til 3pm the next day. I've never had so much fun, which is why this weekend I'm taking it a notch down. It's too crazy and it's all rainy and shit and I much rather curl up to a good movie with beer and chips and salsa.
Mr. Black is always amazing. Getting dolled up and wearing wrestling slinglets carrying tray after tray of free shots and drink orders..always fun. The men, the women, the house music. The staff already has a nickname picked out for me...wrestle boy jr. I think it's pretty much fantastic. Considering that I get to be me..half-naked, dancing and drinking booze. I've turned into what my man Jeff calls a "nightlife monkey". Sure enough that's what I am. I work mid-day, and serve the drinks at night. I was serious when I was telling all of you that I wanted to give gogoing/bartending a shot. I'm just lucky that I found all the right connections. Last night, I helped a friend from Barracuda film a music video for his latest single and it was getting glammed up (body glitter, tons of eyeliner, and again the wrestling slinglet) and dance in his video. I can't wait for the Ari Gold video shoot coming up. Speaking of dancing, I was excited to see Nima and Dustin in the lastest issue of HX because I'm also in there from the night I was gogoing at Mr. Black. I look horrible, but it's fun to see familiar faces magazines.
I'm a little burned out, but mehhh that's what summer is all about. ;)
...more later
We all know that last week was Gay Pride and that I'm still recovering but let me tell you - I had so much fun. Who doesn't want to be trashed by noon, followed by hot men and dance around to amazing music? I mean hello!?! I've networked and made so many new friends..started a new job (kinda on the DL) and even met a few famous people. About a week ago, Laura Linney and Eric McCorrmick both came into my store a day apart from each other, but Laura came in three times that week...to the point that she and I talked about weather, dogs and being busy. She now knows me by a first name basis and I now know her drink - Grande Chi Latte. (Eric's was a double tall skim extra foam latte in case you were interested ;) ) I've found a few cute bars down in the village that are my latest hot spots to 'wine & dine' and dance like a complete fool and to be honest, I love it. I was so excited too, when my BEST friend Lauren came into town for a Bachellorette Party. She spent the first day and 1/2 with me and came to party with me and my boys and let me just tell you..I think we have to have a pt. 2. I celebrated most of my pride week drunk, hanging out with all the boys and watching them kick out the creepy old men from bars who seem to think it's okay to touch themselves in public to the point of erection and think nothing of it. What was his excuse after Edward told him off, "Fuck you mannnn" and he peaced out. And fast. Day after day, I was bar hopping and anticipating the parade and let me tell you...I opened from 5-9am then went to brunch from 10:30-1:30 and then another party from then to 6:00 and then hit the sack. I was soo tired that I think I slept in til 3pm the next day. I've never had so much fun, which is why this weekend I'm taking it a notch down. It's too crazy and it's all rainy and shit and I much rather curl up to a good movie with beer and chips and salsa.
Mr. Black is always amazing. Getting dolled up and wearing wrestling slinglets carrying tray after tray of free shots and drink orders..always fun. The men, the women, the house music. The staff already has a nickname picked out for me...wrestle boy jr. I think it's pretty much fantastic. Considering that I get to be me..half-naked, dancing and drinking booze. I've turned into what my man Jeff calls a "nightlife monkey". Sure enough that's what I am. I work mid-day, and serve the drinks at night. I was serious when I was telling all of you that I wanted to give gogoing/bartending a shot. I'm just lucky that I found all the right connections. Last night, I helped a friend from Barracuda film a music video for his latest single and it was getting glammed up (body glitter, tons of eyeliner, and again the wrestling slinglet) and dance in his video. I can't wait for the Ari Gold video shoot coming up. Speaking of dancing, I was excited to see Nima and Dustin in the lastest issue of HX because I'm also in there from the night I was gogoing at Mr. Black. I look horrible, but it's fun to see familiar faces magazines.
I'm a little burned out, but mehhh that's what summer is all about. ;)
...more later
Friday, July 4, 2008
The Name's Wrestle Boy Jr.
So I've had this itch to write, but quite frankly I don't even know where to begin. There has been so much going on that I have to actually sit down and organize my thoughts.
We all know that last week was Gay Pride and that I'm still recovering but let me tell you - I had so much fun. Who doesn't want to be trashed by noon, followed by hot men and dance around to amazing music? I mean hello!?! I've networked and made so many new friends..started a new job (kinda on the DL) and even met a few famous people. About a week ago, Laura Linney and Eric McCorrmick both came into my store a day apart from each other, but Laura came in three times that week...to the point that she and I talked about weather, dogs and being busy. She now knows me by a first name basis and I now know her drink - Grande Chi Latte. (Eric's was a double tall skim extra foam latte in case you were interested ;) ) I've found a few cute bars down in the village that are my latest hot spots to 'wine & dine' and dance like a complete fool and to be honest, I love it. I was so excited too, when my BEST friend Lauren came into town for a Bachellorette Party. She spent the first day and 1/2 with me and came to party with me and my boys and let me just tell you..I think we have to have a pt. 2. I celebrated most of my pride week drunk, hanging out with all the boys and watching them kick out the creepy old men from bars who seem to think it's okay to touch themselves in public to the point of erection and think nothing of it. What was his excuse after Edward told him off, "Fuck you mannnn" and he peaced out. And fast. Day after day, I was bar hopping and anticipating the parade and let me tell you...I opened from 5-9am then went to brunch from 10:30-1:30 and then another party from then to 6:00 and then hit the sack. I was soo tired that I think I slept in til 3pm the next day. I've never had so much fun, which is why this weekend I'm taking it a notch down. It's too crazy and it's all rainy and shit and I much rather curl up to a good movie with beer and chips and salsa.
Mr. Black is always amazing. Getting dolled up and wearing wrestling slinglets carrying tray after tray of free shots and drink orders..always fun. The men, the women, the house music. The staff already has a nickname picked out for me...wrestle boy jr. I think it's pretty much fantastic. Considering that I get to be me..half-naked, dancing and drinking booze. I've turned into what my man Jeff calls a "nightlife monkey". Sure enough that's what I am. I work mid-day, and serve the drinks at night. I was serious when I was telling all of you that I wanted to give gogoing/bartending a shot. I'm just lucky that I found all the right connections. Last night, I helped a friend from Barracuda film a music video for his latest single and it was getting glammed up (body glitter, tons of eyeliner, and again the wrestling slinglet) and dance in his video. I can't wait for the Ari Gold video shoot coming up. Speaking of dancing, I was excited to see Nima and Dustin in the lastest issue of HX because I'm also in there from the night I was gogoing at Mr. Black. I look horrible, but it's fun to see familiar faces magazines.
I'm a little burned out, but mehhh that's what summer is all about. ;)
...more later
We all know that last week was Gay Pride and that I'm still recovering but let me tell you - I had so much fun. Who doesn't want to be trashed by noon, followed by hot men and dance around to amazing music? I mean hello!?! I've networked and made so many new friends..started a new job (kinda on the DL) and even met a few famous people. About a week ago, Laura Linney and Eric McCorrmick both came into my store a day apart from each other, but Laura came in three times that week...to the point that she and I talked about weather, dogs and being busy. She now knows me by a first name basis and I now know her drink - Grande Chi Latte. (Eric's was a double tall skim extra foam latte in case you were interested ;) ) I've found a few cute bars down in the village that are my latest hot spots to 'wine & dine' and dance like a complete fool and to be honest, I love it. I was so excited too, when my BEST friend Lauren came into town for a Bachellorette Party. She spent the first day and 1/2 with me and came to party with me and my boys and let me just tell you..I think we have to have a pt. 2. I celebrated most of my pride week drunk, hanging out with all the boys and watching them kick out the creepy old men from bars who seem to think it's okay to touch themselves in public to the point of erection and think nothing of it. What was his excuse after Edward told him off, "Fuck you mannnn" and he peaced out. And fast. Day after day, I was bar hopping and anticipating the parade and let me tell you...I opened from 5-9am then went to brunch from 10:30-1:30 and then another party from then to 6:00 and then hit the sack. I was soo tired that I think I slept in til 3pm the next day. I've never had so much fun, which is why this weekend I'm taking it a notch down. It's too crazy and it's all rainy and shit and I much rather curl up to a good movie with beer and chips and salsa.
Mr. Black is always amazing. Getting dolled up and wearing wrestling slinglets carrying tray after tray of free shots and drink orders..always fun. The men, the women, the house music. The staff already has a nickname picked out for me...wrestle boy jr. I think it's pretty much fantastic. Considering that I get to be me..half-naked, dancing and drinking booze. I've turned into what my man Jeff calls a "nightlife monkey". Sure enough that's what I am. I work mid-day, and serve the drinks at night. I was serious when I was telling all of you that I wanted to give gogoing/bartending a shot. I'm just lucky that I found all the right connections. Last night, I helped a friend from Barracuda film a music video for his latest single and it was getting glammed up (body glitter, tons of eyeliner, and again the wrestling slinglet) and dance in his video. I can't wait for the Ari Gold video shoot coming up. Speaking of dancing, I was excited to see Nima and Dustin in the lastest issue of HX because I'm also in there from the night I was gogoing at Mr. Black. I look horrible, but it's fun to see familiar faces magazines.
I'm a little burned out, but mehhh that's what summer is all about. ;)
...more later
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Can I Get A Thank-You!
"I'm trying to figure out the mystery of how to make a gay friend. Whenever I meet a gay guy, its just way too flirtatious from the start. And then screwing around complicates stuff, cause there is always that fragile line between friend and fuckbuddy that is too easily crossed. Quite a fun line to cross, and cross, and cross again.. But see this is my problem!" -M.M.
That being said.
Come say hi to me at Mr. Black tonight!
♥
That being said.
Come say hi to me at Mr. Black tonight!
♥
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Gay Gay Gay.
Summer is barely here and I feel like I've already had a busy, complete summer. Promotions. Internships. This one guy. I don't know, it's crazy to think that I've drastically changed over this past year than I think I've ever changed say in the past 5 years. I think the "shy Mathew" no longer exists and I'm quite pleased that I'm more outspoken. But back to summer, can I just say how tired I am of the rain? It's rained so much within the last month, I can't take it anymore. I am however in love with the past couple days' weather because the sun has been out, the tan is in gear and come on let's be honest, who doesn't look good in a tan? ::shrugs shoulders::
So I've taken on dogwalking as a side job for summer to earn a little more cash, because you know what they say, "mo money, mo shoes". And I'm officially hooked. I get to dogsit in these beautiful apartments in Chelsea, and get to 'own' 6 dogs, without paying the price for actually owning ONE of those dogs. They are too cute and it definitely helps me relieve some stress and gather my thoughts. So does painting, which I've been doing more of now that I have down time to actually paint and not paint semester thesis paintings. I'm trying to juggle many things come to think of it. I've been promoted to manager, which I've realized does not mean more authority, but more responsibility. Meh I'm pretty good at multitasking. I'm actually thinking about bartending because I'm pretty slick at the bar. I'm looking into it now. Watch out. LOL
So the past couple days, I've been thinking. I have quite a few walls that need to come down. I was summarizing my weekend while doing laundry because I was probed to kind of pour out feelings and emotions that I've never really expressed until then, and to be honest, it felt very nice. I'm used to writing or listening to music (while painting) and I'm not going to lie - I loved every second of it. At first, I was feeling a little defensive but I realized that no one has ever really probed or been curious about my life and all it's details. My past, my future and my current status of my being. Hey you, thank you. It's nice to connect with someone on that level and feel comfortable being me and expressing myself the only way I really know how? Anyway, the point of this paragraph is to just thank you and I'm very appreciative and humble of what we have. It feels nice.
So I'm ready to be gay for Gay Pride coming up this month, I'm ready for Sex and the City and anything that may fall in between because now that it's summer, the short shorts and tank tops are out! I'm gay gay gay. Mehhh what can I say...suck it!
So yeah, guess who the painting is. xoxo
So I've taken on dogwalking as a side job for summer to earn a little more cash, because you know what they say, "mo money, mo shoes". And I'm officially hooked. I get to dogsit in these beautiful apartments in Chelsea, and get to 'own' 6 dogs, without paying the price for actually owning ONE of those dogs. They are too cute and it definitely helps me relieve some stress and gather my thoughts. So does painting, which I've been doing more of now that I have down time to actually paint and not paint semester thesis paintings. I'm trying to juggle many things come to think of it. I've been promoted to manager, which I've realized does not mean more authority, but more responsibility. Meh I'm pretty good at multitasking. I'm actually thinking about bartending because I'm pretty slick at the bar. I'm looking into it now. Watch out. LOL
So the past couple days, I've been thinking. I have quite a few walls that need to come down. I was summarizing my weekend while doing laundry because I was probed to kind of pour out feelings and emotions that I've never really expressed until then, and to be honest, it felt very nice. I'm used to writing or listening to music (while painting) and I'm not going to lie - I loved every second of it. At first, I was feeling a little defensive but I realized that no one has ever really probed or been curious about my life and all it's details. My past, my future and my current status of my being. Hey you, thank you. It's nice to connect with someone on that level and feel comfortable being me and expressing myself the only way I really know how? Anyway, the point of this paragraph is to just thank you and I'm very appreciative and humble of what we have. It feels nice.
So I'm ready to be gay for Gay Pride coming up this month, I'm ready for Sex and the City and anything that may fall in between because now that it's summer, the short shorts and tank tops are out! I'm gay gay gay. Mehhh what can I say...suck it!
So yeah, guess who the painting is. xoxo
Saturday, March 15, 2008
"Beautiful Boy"
Is the current book that I'm reading, and I know I know it's so typical because it's the new 'top-seller' at Starbucks but my boss let me take a copy so I can refer it to customers who seem interested in it. I do have to say that it's quite addicting. No pun intended. :) So my weekend started a little earlier than I wished. Opening sucks major because a.) I have to go to bed way early to get a decent amount of sleep and b.) I'm screwed if I miss the 4:40am train. But nevertheless, I enjoy it because I get to see all my regulars and people who I really enjoy seeing on a regular basis.
So I'm at the end of the platform (last car because it drops me off at the perfect exit on 96th St) and there is this man snoring so loud on the opposite platform, it actually distracts me from reading. All these ghetto black girls start throwing gum or trash or something at him yelling at him to wake up because he's annoying everyone underground at 28th St. I kinda felt sorry for him, because the harrassment was kinda intense. Either way, I was happy each time the express train came through because for that brief 30 seconds or so, you couldn't hear his snoring.
The train ride wasn't any better. Why is it that everytime I get on the train at 5:00 in the morning, there is nothing but homeless men curled up, sprawled out, stretched out on the subway seats. The car is filled with this lingering scent of B.O. and smelly feet. It was so brutal but I didn't want to move because I was too lazy. I decided to just bury my face in my scarf and continue to read. Remember, the book is already interesting and I'm still in the introduction. I did notice something though. About a month ago, when I had to trek uptown to get my tips from work, I had my painting of Ike that left yellow oil paint in this awkward pattern on the floor by the 2 center poles. Sure enough, it was the same train, same car because I remembered the paint marks. Crazy.
So I'm happy that I get to see my mother's face everyday now. Painting these 9 heads for my painting class is turning out better than I imagined it would be. People are noticing the faces without asking, "who is that supposed to be??" which is flawless because that means I'm doing a good job. But anyway, on that note, I'm doing a portrait of my mother, so I have this photo copied image of her that I'm using as a reference, but as my bookmark for "Beautiful Boy". I can't believe that her birthday is this month. She would have been turning 50 this year. 50. I don't know about you, but I can't believe that time has flown by this fast. I mean we're already at spring break, half way done with 2nd semester and then it will be summer. Summer always flies by so fast and then 2nd year will start. I can't even believe that I'll be a sophomore in college. (For those who know, you know that college in NY is such a big deal for me lol) I'm just excited because I can feel the urge to learn and the talent is strengthening. I'm just anxious to be in 3rd year or something. I'm just impatient.
::deep sigh::
So I'm once again beating away boys with sticks and winding up feeling lonely. It's only been 6 months since "he who should not be mentioned broke up and to be honest, it feels like it's been a year. I'm over him and I'm sure he's over me but I still feel like I'm not ready to jump back in a relationship. 3 years was a long time and I can't just date anybody. Everyone already assumes that I'm dating him and that you're my boyfriend, but I'm just ready to be in any position of titles and restrictions and anything that may come with the whole package. I think I'm enjoying my single life. I love being so productive that I have no time to do anything. It means that I'm doing what I love. I'm in school monday through friday, I'm pulling in 20 hours a week and I'm still managing to do volunteer work for work and school all while planning rehearsals for Miss FIT. I have an intense schedule and let's be real, do I have the time to play boyfriend? Meh, one could disagree. I do have to admit that I hate playing the heartbreaker. I don't like seeing that look in your face, his face or even my own face. I think it's all just bad timing. I don't even have time to get emotional about it. I wasted 3 months crying every night asking myself what I did wrong, when in fact it's not anyone's fault. It's just timing. Trying to force a square to fit perfectly inside a circle. I'm no magician, so I don't want to keep spinning around trying to find a solution. Fuck that. ;)
After working a long day at work, it felt nice to just sip on some coffee and sketch a little in the cafe section at work. The weather is gorgeous and I really should take advantage of it. Maybe a picnic with mini wine boxes or a photoshoot in central park...I don't know. Maybe just go walking in spring clothes. Either way, I'm just in a good mood.
Who's with me?
So I'm at the end of the platform (last car because it drops me off at the perfect exit on 96th St) and there is this man snoring so loud on the opposite platform, it actually distracts me from reading. All these ghetto black girls start throwing gum or trash or something at him yelling at him to wake up because he's annoying everyone underground at 28th St. I kinda felt sorry for him, because the harrassment was kinda intense. Either way, I was happy each time the express train came through because for that brief 30 seconds or so, you couldn't hear his snoring.
The train ride wasn't any better. Why is it that everytime I get on the train at 5:00 in the morning, there is nothing but homeless men curled up, sprawled out, stretched out on the subway seats. The car is filled with this lingering scent of B.O. and smelly feet. It was so brutal but I didn't want to move because I was too lazy. I decided to just bury my face in my scarf and continue to read. Remember, the book is already interesting and I'm still in the introduction. I did notice something though. About a month ago, when I had to trek uptown to get my tips from work, I had my painting of Ike that left yellow oil paint in this awkward pattern on the floor by the 2 center poles. Sure enough, it was the same train, same car because I remembered the paint marks. Crazy.
So I'm happy that I get to see my mother's face everyday now. Painting these 9 heads for my painting class is turning out better than I imagined it would be. People are noticing the faces without asking, "who is that supposed to be??" which is flawless because that means I'm doing a good job. But anyway, on that note, I'm doing a portrait of my mother, so I have this photo copied image of her that I'm using as a reference, but as my bookmark for "Beautiful Boy". I can't believe that her birthday is this month. She would have been turning 50 this year. 50. I don't know about you, but I can't believe that time has flown by this fast. I mean we're already at spring break, half way done with 2nd semester and then it will be summer. Summer always flies by so fast and then 2nd year will start. I can't even believe that I'll be a sophomore in college. (For those who know, you know that college in NY is such a big deal for me lol) I'm just excited because I can feel the urge to learn and the talent is strengthening. I'm just anxious to be in 3rd year or something. I'm just impatient.
::deep sigh::
So I'm once again beating away boys with sticks and winding up feeling lonely. It's only been 6 months since "he who should not be mentioned broke up and to be honest, it feels like it's been a year. I'm over him and I'm sure he's over me but I still feel like I'm not ready to jump back in a relationship. 3 years was a long time and I can't just date anybody. Everyone already assumes that I'm dating him and that you're my boyfriend, but I'm just ready to be in any position of titles and restrictions and anything that may come with the whole package. I think I'm enjoying my single life. I love being so productive that I have no time to do anything. It means that I'm doing what I love. I'm in school monday through friday, I'm pulling in 20 hours a week and I'm still managing to do volunteer work for work and school all while planning rehearsals for Miss FIT. I have an intense schedule and let's be real, do I have the time to play boyfriend? Meh, one could disagree. I do have to admit that I hate playing the heartbreaker. I don't like seeing that look in your face, his face or even my own face. I think it's all just bad timing. I don't even have time to get emotional about it. I wasted 3 months crying every night asking myself what I did wrong, when in fact it's not anyone's fault. It's just timing. Trying to force a square to fit perfectly inside a circle. I'm no magician, so I don't want to keep spinning around trying to find a solution. Fuck that. ;)
After working a long day at work, it felt nice to just sip on some coffee and sketch a little in the cafe section at work. The weather is gorgeous and I really should take advantage of it. Maybe a picnic with mini wine boxes or a photoshoot in central park...I don't know. Maybe just go walking in spring clothes. Either way, I'm just in a good mood.
Who's with me?
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