It's 4:35P.

So my flight to Dallas is delayed now by a couple hours. I was supposed to leave at 4:50, but then it was delayed to 5:35. Well, now since the weather is really bad, all the previous flights to DFW have been cancelled. They said there could be a chance ours would be too. We're now departing around 6:30ish.

::sigh::

I'm still working on my cosi strawberry parfait and missing David like crazy! lol He called me when he got out of school, which is nice because I wanted to hear his voice before I left the apt. He's cute. I paid $10 bucks to get internet so I could write in this thing and check my shit. LOL Side note: I'm kinda scared about flying in bad weather. It scares me, but I'll be fine. I started working on my book that David and I both got together. "ALL ABOUT US" It's fun, and cute. I'm glad we're working on this relationship. Getting back together is a good thing for me. I needed it. I want to share my going to school and new job shit with someone I love.

Well...there's a lot of people building up so I hate over the shoulder reading...I'll write more later.

I love you David!

Oh.

and side note:

the state I'm in currently when it comes to us, was not easy to get to.
still is in the works, but yes it's nice.

i know why you ended it.

Realization.

So I got into FIT.
What an amazing journey it was too. I started from scratch and now I have 2 years ahead of me. I couldn't have done it without my friends. I've been spending more and more time in that area and meeting people at the school. ONE THING: Everyone there is so friendly and outgoing that it was easy to meet people. I love it. I met a couple guys who introduced me to their friends and all I can say right now, is that I love the feeling of knowing more people.

I think I was scared of the whole breakup because I was dependent on David to fill me completely. Now that I've realized that I don't need him, I love it. I went to Hell's Kitchen last weekend, met people..drank, danced, and did the whole thing and I still love David, but the more he and I spend time together, I'm seeing that we're actually drifting farther and farther apart. SO I've come to realize that I am on my own. In NEW YORK FUCKING CITY.

I LOVE EVERY SECOND OF IT TOO.

So I was up in Queens last night. Again this weekend.
I'm a trooper, my sense of direction is getting better and better. Either that, or it's just getting easier and easier to get around.

Now I'm in the bath, feeling a little sex and city like and typing in the laptop watching some old school spice girl concert/behind-the-scene stuff.

2007! I said this year would be all about me, and so far...it's proven to be that and beyond. It's only March 18...it gets better from here. THANK YOU!

...and to you too..

Not A Fan.

Of you write I write blah blah blah.









But because you don't talk to me, I wanted to say "you're right".









FUCK.

1:35A.

I have this tug pulling at my heart that it's officially over.
I know it's probably been over since the 22nd, but not so much.

NOW I feel it's the time.
I'm ready to move on.

I don't know if it's fear or a sign of relief.
Either way, life has to go on.

Thank you.
Thank you for almost 2 years to jump start my life.

Sleep tight.
x

I Shouldn't.

Tell you this either, but I was thinking about you all day too.

Looks.

like we both lost it.




again.




not with each other.





and probably not for a while either.




we both like who we've got.




correct me if i'm wrong.

4:25A.

Why do I care where he goes?

It's because I secretly still love him and wish to still be together.

I can wish all I want.

At least we have a "play date" today.

I still love him.

a lot.

Wow.

5:15a shift at starbucks.

Holla.

x

Freedom Ring!

The mohawk is back.

I feel more like myself again.

I have wonderful new friends.

They know how to take care of me. :)

Music to booty-bounce to is a HUGE +.

I'm starting to feel feelings for him again.

Should I?

IDK.

x

Now go eat a pb&b!

One.

Week from today, I will be at a portfolio review at FIT for 4 hours.

Now is the time.

It's either now or never.

God, I need this to work out.

I need to get out of 148th.

x