I Love Her.

Tyra Banks is my HERO.

Bills.

I'm sure you care.
But I just paid all my bills.
I'm excited.

Addict.

It's true.



I'm addicted.

Waste.

I own a very select few of what I think are nice items.

So why does it seem like everytime I just get comfortable enjoying them, it gets ruined.

Is it a sign telling me I don't deseve such things?



I'd like to know to know what I did.

Hi, My Name Is...

Matthew Chavez.






...and sometimes I feel like a failure.
...and sometimesI feel unsuccessful.
...and sometimes my anxiety takes over.






That's good, it means I'm alive.
but sometimes, it feels a little overwhelming.

♥

Three's Company.

Three's Enough.


Especially when it comes to us girls having Spa Treatments 101.


Take a gander.
bangbang!

guacamole masks.






Mask Peel Makeovers.







Nose Strips.








The After Party.






Nuff Said.

Girls.

girls are just mean.

Family Portrait.

Okay, so all 10 of our fish [died] while we were gone in Nashville.

But that's okay...we brought home Nikita, David's childhood dog home with us.

She's everything we needed to complete our life-style in Dallas.



Boo Yah.

..::♥♥♥::..

Q&A.

Tell Me:


"How did we meet?"





Ready, Set, Go.

Spa Treatment.

Spa Treatment Bloopers.

Dang. We look hot. Ha.

Tennessee is great by the way.

All of it is just amazing.

...pictures soon

Late Night Phone Calls.

Everyone, I'd like you to meet David Lopez, my boyfriend.

[enter here]

Late night phone calls is what we do best.

Black girls Impressions // Crazy faces // Christmas music // Dancing // Singing


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Big Muscles // Amazing style // Sexy laugh // Comedic personality

Now you tell me why we love each other so much.

Because...

we do.

In fact, everyone loves him...who wouldn't?

Tag.

The first player of this game starts with the "6 weird/things/habits about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end you need to choose the 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read yours.



1. Everyone knows that I'm in love with Mr. David Lopez.

2. I'm picky about my clothes. Since I'm a small guy, everything has to fit just right, or else I won't buy it. It's hard to find form fitting tshirts and jeans that fit me, but I do it because clothes are my thing.

3. I love my music loud. In the car, in the shower, in my apartment, etc...everywhere. Music has to be LOUD. lol

4. I love everything and anything chocolate.

5. I'm addicted to photography. Duh, you knew that.

6. I have OCD hardcore, everything has to be clean and organized.




I'm tagging these 6 lucky people: David, Julie, Crystal, Allie, Eric, & Jake.

Wedding.

Mike and Misti's Wedding.

2006.



Front Row Seats.

AMAZING

The End.

Sister Act.

[Sister Act]
Julie and I 1997

..::♥♥♥::..

So I called my sister today and after a good long talk about our past, it just occured to me that our childhood was filled with nothing but wonderful memories, embarrassing moments, and imaginations that was out of this world.

[Remember When] We used to get in our bathing suits and take baths together playing with barbies? and then we would go outside and play with them in the mud? Speaking of mud...

[Remember When] We got in trouble for making mud with the hose in the backyard and put it all over the brick wall? We got in so much trouble we both got spankings at the same time and as we were bending over on the couch (mom was spanking you, dad was spanking me) and looked at each other, we started laughing? We ended up standing in the corner for like 30 minutes.

[Remember When] We would record the dinosaurs from Jurassic Park and play them on the boom box out back and we would run through the sprinklers imagining being chased by T-Rex and those little green ones?

[Remember When] You got the A*Teens first cd and you and I were so obsessed with it, we pretended we were them (you played both girls, I played both boys) and used curling irons and hair brushes as microphones and danced all gay? ha.

[Remember When] When we would make forts in our bedrooms? We would alternate whose room we would make them in because we would always make it in the biggest room, which we always thought was our own room...turns out they were the exact same size.

[Remember When] We would either ride bikes or take the wagon to "The Hill" and go as fast as we can down the hill? It was fun until that time your handle bar hit that big silver mailbox and you went flying into someone's yard while their sprinklers went off. And then the next day, my pedal came off and I fell face first in and ice cold puddle.

[Remember When] All those times we faught, we always managed to make up within 30 minutes? We grew so close over the years that it was normal for us to never be mad at each other. It's what we did. It's what we do. Love.

[Remember When] I said even though I'm moving, I'll always keep in touch with you? Until we die? And guess what? I still am. And you still are.


It's what we do.


LOVE.

I love you Jules. It was really good talking with you today. I'm glad that things are working out for you and wow...look at how much you've grown! You're practically a woman now! So as soon as you turn 17/18 you better come fly out and visit me. I love you.


Your Brother,

Mattie

R.P.E.

bang bang bang!



I got my R.P.E. today.


many of you that [had/have] braces know what I'm talking about.


...and how thoughtful of my dentist...



mine's pink.

[One Time]

[one time] I turned off the music in the car and poured my heart for the 40 minute ride home. David cried because in those forty minutes we fell in love all over again.


[one time] I met David at work at two in the morning because he was having a horrible night.


[one time] David and I layed in bed for hours just talking and laughing.


[one time] I made him laugh so hard with my myspace impressions, he fell on the floor.


...


[one time] David wrote me a note telling me that he loved me because I was sad about some of my friends turning their backs on me when I came out. and he folded it up and left it on my seat in the car when I wasn't looking. I found it after we had dinner and I cried when I read it.


[one time] David lit about 40 candles in our bathroom and surrounding the tub. He told me to come into the bathroom and I gasped when I glanced around.


[one time] when I was sick, David went to the grocery store while I was sleeping. He woke me up with french toast, a homemade fruit bowl, orange juice, pepto bismol and robutussin.


[one time] David pulled his boxers all the way up around his chest and danced around to make me laugh.


[one time] David sang me to sleep on the phone.

Group Therapy 101.

There have been certain issues that I've noticed about my life since coming out this past November. Don't get me wrong, there are more pros, but there has been some cons as well. I was talking with my other "church going" crowd and they agreed with me - churches always have the most drama.

The Cons:
Some of the cons I can clearly see is how quickly everyone I was close to changed whenever they were around me. I know that things like this take some time and I'm not impatient about that, it's the fact that everyone is discreet about it. I know that there's an underlining attitude towards me and I just want everyone to stop denying it and just be normal. To be honest, I'm getting very tired and worn out with everyone's outlook or perspective on how I should be living me life. You don't see me pointing my fingers at you guys so I'm a little confused as why everyone has pointed theirs at me, as well as turn their backs. I know that Christians are the worse hypocrites, but I remember growing up knowing that Christianity is about compassion, not judgement. I don't think it's fair that you guys kicked me out of the youth group. This upsets me because I thought you guys were my friends. With exception of like 3 of you, I really don't what to say to you all. I'm just like...blah...I want to say I care, but at this point, I really don't. All I can think of, is unlike you, I haven't turned my back on you...you were the ones that turned your backs on me.

I think it's quite funny because our [group] has a lot of secrets that everyone already knows, so why just confess and just tell that person to his/her face. I personally don't like hearing someone else's drama/gossip. I don't think it's fair or mature to just talk about someone as if they don't have feelings. This has been an ongoing problem for a while now, and it's been on my mind a lot. The point is, I'm usually the listener. I listen to what others have to say in hopes that it's just "venting" aggravating annoyances, but I'm wrong most of the time. It's just cold hard gossip that really makes me upset. It saddens me more, but mainly upsets me. We're adults - not agroup of high school girls competing for attention from the "sexy quarterback". haha I'm tired of everyone's drama, everyone's gossip...everyone's attitudes. We're all in our 20's so let's be the grown-up adults we're supposed to be and get other and better things to do. We're not young adults anymore, it was okay then...we're older and better than that. Don't you think? But as for everyone else that made me feel comfortable, made David and myself feel comfortable for the remainder of our stay in Dallas - THANK YOU. It wouldn't be what it is now if it weren't for you.

I just really wanted to get the cons off my chest because by the looks of my pictures, blogs, messages, etc....I'm pretty sure it's obvious what the Pros are about me coming out. All I can say, is that I'm genuinely happy. I still love all of you, but sometimes my heart hurts when I don't think it should. I'm just tired of it. I just wish it was the way it used to be...unless it's been like this all this time, and I'm just now piecing it all together. So now that all this energy is off my chest, I feel much better.

Highway Bloopers.

Highway Bloopers.

[Enter]

Lindsay Lohan // Singing // Cameras.

Bad Combo.

Considering there are nosey drivers.





haha.

///

[End Scene]


..::♥♥♥::..

we should have driving photoshoots more often.

New 2006.

nuff said.



















Boo Ya.



New apartment 2006.

NY, Cameras, & Goodbyes.

So David...



And I just finished settling into our new apartment...

with our fish too...



Is it weird that I already miss New York?

...

Here's what I loved most about NY.

















































I'll miss NY for the moment being, but I'll make just as wonderful memories back home here in Dallas with David.

He's the reason my heart is still beating.

♥





I love you David Lopez.